Porous Memoryscapes
On taking notes because I do not want to forget.
It is easy for me to be hard on myself — a deeply ingrained response to failure and an acute refusal to take responsibility.
I forget — a lot of things, fine and important details about what happened. And it bothers me how much more quietly slips between the cracks.
Perhaps that is why I take notes and document, anxiously and furiously, the happenings, thoughts, ideas, phrases, letters for a future when my memory runs thin — as evidence that I existed even though just to myself. And so that as I revisit these documented vignettes, I will remember to gift that version of myself a bit more empathy and compassion for what he tried and failed at.